These last few weeks have been extremely hectic. It takes a lot to stress me out, but lately I've dragged myself home so tired and stressed that my whole body hurt. I've often been told I need to toughen up, that my heart is too tender. Today I wish it were that easy. It is literally painful seeing the choices that some of my students are making. I love my students; I wish I was able to help them more. Truly only God can save them.

I am so thankful that I have God to hold on to. I literally do not see how people survive without him. He is my very breathe.

In physics, they speculate why nuetrons and positrons stay together in an atom. The same charge that exists in the positrons should propel them apart. Yet some force, either a slight negative charge or...the answer to all things...God...holds them together. How amazing. I feel that he is that same force in my life. The are so many areas in my life that seem to want to continually charge in opposite directions. Yet God hold them all close and I sit in the middle. Amazed by the miracle and shaken by the conflict in the midst of it.