The last few weeks since I returned from Africa have been so full. It seems like going back to Africa has once again knocked on my door. I embraced it whole heartedly at first, but find myself hesitant at times. There is a life I wish to lead here, but it does not seem to be the direction God is taking me at this time.

So, I find myself in the land of in between. I belong no where, but must try to thrive while being split between two places. I want to be in Kenya, but I am waiting for the last details to fall into place. At the same time, I find myself trying to fully invest in my job and in life here. Currently, I feel as if I am failing at both.

Since God is the only thing I can fully cling to at this time, I have a death grip! I may have to make many sacrifices in life-but I am never required to sacrifice my relationship to him!