December 18, 2006
Wow! Life has been busy and very stressful. These last few weeks have weighed very heavily on me and the lack of time to really pray through the things weighing on my mind has been tough. The reality of the risks of the decisions I'm making I believe is catching up to me as well as the obstacles which lay in my path.
On a late night drive last night though, the Lord came. The stars were gorgeous and the road so peaceful. God reminded me to trust in him. He is in control and will never call me to a place unless it is where I'm supposed to be and will bring him the most glory. God has always been faithful to reveal each step ahead. He has answered my prayers in amazing ways.
To begin, God has sent me some amazing love notes this week. Each one brimming with his love and reassurance of my worth. Part of my mental frustration is feelings of worthlessness. Very seldom do I hear praise which is so essential when the world is constantly criticizing us to do better. My prayer was to hear praise...that I was doing something right. In one week, God showed me how I had impacted three lives just by living and interacting. We all need a love note every now and then. God showing us what we are doing right when often we are only shown what we are doing wrong.
The song in my heart? Trust and obey...when there is no other way.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Nov. 29, 2006
Well, these past few days have been rather difficult to buckle down and get my work done! I'm finally all clear to run again: the marathon recovery time is over and it has been feeeling great to run again. Between this refound ability and a few new great books I wish I had all day every day just to work out, read, maybe finally work on my Spanish and my extremely rusty piano skills. I touched a piano yesterday after probably a year. I only have the skills of probablly a second year piano student, but I loved the ability to make something beautiful. Lately I've been wishing that I have the time to explore the little artistic ability I have and perhaps get involved in a singing group again.
Oh well. Pressing on towards the goal of graduate school.
Well, these past few days have been rather difficult to buckle down and get my work done! I'm finally all clear to run again: the marathon recovery time is over and it has been feeeling great to run again. Between this refound ability and a few new great books I wish I had all day every day just to work out, read, maybe finally work on my Spanish and my extremely rusty piano skills. I touched a piano yesterday after probably a year. I only have the skills of probablly a second year piano student, but I loved the ability to make something beautiful. Lately I've been wishing that I have the time to explore the little artistic ability I have and perhaps get involved in a singing group again.
Oh well. Pressing on towards the goal of graduate school.
Sunday, November 19, 2006
November 19, 2006
Well, I-Map is in the midst of creating the proposal for Baraka. I looked it over and was amazed that we could be in posession in February! Part of it doesn't seem real...is this really going to happen. I have been incredibly blessed this last year with amazing friends and an amazing small group. This weekend was a wonderful time full of fun and great times hanging out with friends. I can't wait to go to Africa, but at the same time I don't look forward to the loneliness which can dominate when you are so far away from family, friends, and in a new culture.
God always provides, as he has provided so richly so far. I am amazed at his provisions!
Well, I-Map is in the midst of creating the proposal for Baraka. I looked it over and was amazed that we could be in posession in February! Part of it doesn't seem real...is this really going to happen. I have been incredibly blessed this last year with amazing friends and an amazing small group. This weekend was a wonderful time full of fun and great times hanging out with friends. I can't wait to go to Africa, but at the same time I don't look forward to the loneliness which can dominate when you are so far away from family, friends, and in a new culture.
God always provides, as he has provided so richly so far. I am amazed at his provisions!
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
November 14, 2006
The realities of this next year are beginning to hit me...moving again, possibly finding a new job, going to school full time are all huge changes. The hardest thing right now is staying in the present and doing the job God has laid before me here and now. As of yet, the next thing is on the horizon, but not here yet.
The realities of this next year are beginning to hit me...moving again, possibly finding a new job, going to school full time are all huge changes. The hardest thing right now is staying in the present and doing the job God has laid before me here and now. As of yet, the next thing is on the horizon, but not here yet.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
A coworker once told me that Kindergarten was fun...but exausting. I couldn't agree more as I reflect on the past few days. Life has been a bit overwhelming playing catch up and realizing how far I have to go to these kids up to par. At the same time I've been struck at how much they need my prayer. Each one is so special, but many have been handed such challenges.
Between that and graduate school, the obstacles I face this year seem a bit overwhelming. Especially when it comes to paying for graduate school! I feel like God gave me a big moral boost today, however. I was muddling my way down to BSU to begin looking at scholarships to help me through. The employee was walking me through the process when I questioned her about a form my advisor told me about. She showed me a webpage and explained how this was the most likely the form referenced, but that very few people ever received scholarships from this particular sponsor. "These often go unused because so few people qualify. They are for people like cancer survivors..." I literally jumped with hand raised waving in the air (I've been around Kindergarteners too long) "That's me!" I shouted.
I nearly burst into tears of joy after the encounter. I've often wondered why I had cancer. It wasn't a huge deal in my life, but an inconvenient one! Not to mention the cloud that hung over my head for years wondering if it would come back. It may be that God just had an amazing plan and was taking care of me all along.
God has truly been amazing, and I've often found myself singing the past few days..."God will make a way, when there seems to be no way."
By the way: the marathon pics are posted. The huge smile on my face isn't because I was feeling so wonderful...but rather the improtu sprint that took place at the end. Another guy and I were both shuffling along the last quarter mile when I posed the challenge: "Comon, let's finish strong." I picked up the pace and he followed suit. Before you know it we were both in a full sprint to the finish. I couldn't help laugh over how crazy we were. By the way, he won the sprint!
http://www.backprint.com/view_user_photo.asp?PID=253&EVENTID=16844&PWD=&ID=29278553&FROM=photos
Between that and graduate school, the obstacles I face this year seem a bit overwhelming. Especially when it comes to paying for graduate school! I feel like God gave me a big moral boost today, however. I was muddling my way down to BSU to begin looking at scholarships to help me through. The employee was walking me through the process when I questioned her about a form my advisor told me about. She showed me a webpage and explained how this was the most likely the form referenced, but that very few people ever received scholarships from this particular sponsor. "These often go unused because so few people qualify. They are for people like cancer survivors..." I literally jumped with hand raised waving in the air (I've been around Kindergarteners too long) "That's me!" I shouted.
I nearly burst into tears of joy after the encounter. I've often wondered why I had cancer. It wasn't a huge deal in my life, but an inconvenient one! Not to mention the cloud that hung over my head for years wondering if it would come back. It may be that God just had an amazing plan and was taking care of me all along.
God has truly been amazing, and I've often found myself singing the past few days..."God will make a way, when there seems to be no way."
By the way: the marathon pics are posted. The huge smile on my face isn't because I was feeling so wonderful...but rather the improtu sprint that took place at the end. Another guy and I were both shuffling along the last quarter mile when I posed the challenge: "Comon, let's finish strong." I picked up the pace and he followed suit. Before you know it we were both in a full sprint to the finish. I couldn't help laugh over how crazy we were. By the way, he won the sprint!
http://www.backprint.com/view_user_photo.asp?PID=253&EVENTID=16844&PWD=&ID=29278553&FROM=photos
Monday, November 06, 2006
November 6, 2006 The Start
Finally...the start of my blog!
Yesterday I finished my first marathon! It was one of those events that if it weren't for my inability to walk without a limp I wouldn't believe that I had accomplished it! In actuallity though I could not have done it without amazing support from my running partners and my principle!
God also used it as a definite conviction time as my goal of running, which started out as an opportunity to establish relationships and reach out to others has shifted to being more about me and my goals. I went to church Saturday night and God ever so gently reminded me of this in an amazing praise service. It was a service were standing did not seem sufficient...instead it seemed as if we should all be bowed in adoration to an amazing God. He is so amazing and I feel as if God has blessed me so richly. This weekend I was amazed as he showed me over and over again what amazing friends I have who are willing to support me in anything...from personally woes to celebrating the finish of a marathon!
I will try to post pics from the marathon shortly.
Finally...the start of my blog!
Yesterday I finished my first marathon! It was one of those events that if it weren't for my inability to walk without a limp I wouldn't believe that I had accomplished it! In actuallity though I could not have done it without amazing support from my running partners and my principle!
God also used it as a definite conviction time as my goal of running, which started out as an opportunity to establish relationships and reach out to others has shifted to being more about me and my goals. I went to church Saturday night and God ever so gently reminded me of this in an amazing praise service. It was a service were standing did not seem sufficient...instead it seemed as if we should all be bowed in adoration to an amazing God. He is so amazing and I feel as if God has blessed me so richly. This weekend I was amazed as he showed me over and over again what amazing friends I have who are willing to support me in anything...from personally woes to celebrating the finish of a marathon!
I will try to post pics from the marathon shortly.
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