Ahhhh...the infamous Valentine's week. I think I will remember this one for a while.

Mon: Teaching hormone crazed third graders
Tues: Teaching hormone crazed third graders on an unseasonably warm day and preparing for a sub since my co-worker would be gone.
Wes: Doc appointment. Found out that since I might be going overseas I need to have a thyroid scan. No big deal...until I find out that I have to go off my medication. The bloggers often term this hypo-hell. The last time I did this I stayed under a blanket it 110 degree weather for over a week. My daily goal was to make my bed...after doing so I would feel exhausted. How does this fit in with grad school, teaching, and trying to figure out what to do next???
Thurs: The big day! Had dinner and played nertz with a bunch of single friends. Yes...we are nerds...but we had so much fun.
Fri: Wrote a paper, had dinner with the parents
Sat: long run...way to much quiet time to think about the future...but God blessed it! Went to a baby shower and felt very out of place amoung all the other Moms and married women. Do baby's really need that much stuff???? LOTR in the evening..fell asleep soon after Rivendell.
Sun: Well, soon I'll have church and group. The thing I hate most about health issues is having to explain what's going on to everyone else. It's also hard knowing that it is impossible for others to understand the impact...they weren't there we I went through it the last time....it reminds me that I had cancer...a fact I forget most days...it reminds me that I have friends and family to help...but ultimately it is up to God and I to get through this. Right now I'm trying to work ahead and not dwell on the fears...fears I won't be able to teach because of feeling bad and ruining 26 kids third grade year...fear that something might be wrong...fear I won't be able to keep up with my graduate studies.

Thankfully I have a fear catcher. God catches them all and reminds me of the amazing things he has done in the past. I'm also reminded that for at least 6 months I had a TSH of 12-15 when it is supposed to be close to zero and I managed to keep up with everything. It will have to be 30 for the scan...but only for a short time. I think God allowed my levels to be off last year to show me I could do it. He provided the strength and will do so again.